The bad and good days being a writer

Ugh! I am almost finished with All This Time, the current KGFF I'm working on right now. But gosh, sometimes I just want to give up and just content myself being a reader.

Being a writer was not easy. Now that i know too well how hard it is, I deeply appreciate all their hard work coming up with a book that would take me to places and introduce me to characters I adore.

I have taken writing seriously for only four months since I started in October only. And in four months time, I have learned that being a writer has its good days and bad days.

Today, I am having one of those bad days. I am struggling with words; struggling with ideas on how to show my story; struggling how to contruct my sentenses and string them together to convey the thought, emotions, scenarious, mood and characters I wanted my readers to see and to feel and to know.

Ahhhhh!!!! Bad days often make me want to put my pen down, throw all the paper and notes and notebooks away and just get up and leave and not write another word. It was a bad day when I read over my work and I cringe because they were all so lousy and badly-written; they're ridiculous. In short, i think all that I've written sucks.

And a bad day would definitely not turn into a good day when I read the works of other FF writers and their stories were good, well-written and well-thought of.

WAAAAAA i dont know what's happening to me today but i am EG right now. In short, my insecurities struck again. I was never known for my confidence in writing - I dont know why. Though I love writing.

I hope my melancholic mood shall come to pass.